Saturday, September 10, 2005
sorry but i am feeling depressed. i dont know how many times have i done this. everytime when i give her the hope, i would somehow disappoint her. i think in relationships i am a blardy big loser. i dont know why but somehow i feel that way. i know it means alot to you. i know it. i really know it. but why must it always turn out in the way that i dont want it to. people look at me as if i am a very happy go lucky person. deep down inside within me do i? i dont even think so. i am an idiot. seriously. disappointed many people already. seems like the more things i do the greater disappointment i am. somebody please tell me why.