The most dreaded day is here. Next week is just so hectic. I can't believe 'next week' is going to happen in another few hours time. I just wished I get to spend more time out with you.

When my parents came home, it just made me realised how much I actually missed them, my lovely girlfriend had to wash my clothes and clean my house because my brother is lazy and I don't know how to do it. These are just things that I used to not know it, but I'm going to cherish it now. I miss using a smartphone because in camp its just calling and smsing, basically nothing else you can do.

My buddy has herpes, it makes me worry that I might contract it too because we live in such close proximity and occasionally shared stuff. Now I am worried that it might be on me because I have sore throat, a slight bump on my head. I don't want to miss any high key events for the next two weeks. I just want it all to fast forward so badly.

I shall go and pack my stuff before she finds out and scolds me.
Till then.... I'll try to survive.

I love you.... so very much.

6 weeks to go.. 41 more days. 3 weeks more of hardship, then it might be 4day week because of the public holidays. Hanging in there...

9:56 AM

So another week has passed. Booked out last night at 8pm. Watched a movie, You are the apple of my eye at 11pm with lovely. Slept around 3plus, woke up at 9plus. Did not want to sleep any more. I'll have range on monday, march on tuesday, ippt on wednesday. Gonna be shagged out for the week, but hopefully everything will be fast and furious and it will be another bookout!

Going out to meet bear later at 6pm. Tomorrow another movie, twilight, then its another night back in camp.

Argh.

Till then I should make myself enjoy. =)

I love you bear.

4:09 PM

I know this is way too torturous, but everyone has to go through the same ol' shit so I only can suck on it. Life was never the same since that faithful day.

Yesterday I had my first official book out. It was one of the best feeling ever, to be able to come out after confinement but it's only a short day and now I've to go back in again. 48 more days till I grad from it and there's nothing I can do. My parents are going overseas this whole week and I'm going over the seas to train. I shall just comfort myself by saying the 2 weeks of confine is over, so just stay on and persevere all the way. My high key outfield are all coming soon. Guess I don't have much time to slack off either. Everyday marching, physical training, running, knocking it down isn't very ideal.

For my friends, now I truly appreciate and cherish every single second I have with you guys. I love you guys.

For my girlfriend, I've never felt like I needed you more before. This is truly one of those times I look forward to every night just to hear your voice. It makes everything feel better. I can't deny sometimes after a hard day, upon hearing you, it makes me weak inside. You're like my pillar of strength, my determination to completing tasks. I love you b.

For my family, I never thought I'll say this but now I know why people inside always say the people that worry about you most are your parents. Every other second their thinking of you, wondering how you're doing, but they know you have other priorities first. Ill take this time to at least remind myself to send my mum a message every night irregardless of whether she's in Singapore or not. I love my family, sometimes it's just too hard to say it.

I'll like to summarize everything up by saying I'm coping rather well inside but like everyone else Sundays are short and it's really dreadful to be going in on sunday night and only be out on a saturday.

7 more weeks to go. 48 more days till I can have my break of a week.

I'm officially hanging in there. With my life.

8:41 AM

It's Sunday night. I'm booking in the morning tomorrow.

I wrote this specially for you my love. Things are gonna get tougher as the days go by. I'm gonna look forward to training hard. Getting muscle aches. Getting tanned. Getting sun burnt. Getting fitter by the day. I know you are going to stay by my side, cheer for me. I just want you to know, life inside is indeed different, it's a whole lot tougher than the comforts I have at home. I will not chao keng. I will not do anything stupid just to jeopardize my time with you. Cause to me you're one of the most important person in my life now. I'm serving to protect my family, my friends, people close to me, and most importantly to protect you. I know I've been getting pretty sad and stuff these few days but it is really part and parcel of this phase in my life. I hope I can look back and smile an have you telling me, "hey baby, you did it".

I might not be able to reply your text as fast as frequently, but I assure you I will do it whenever I can. Whenever you miss me, you can come here. Tell me how you feel. So when I book out, all tired I still can look into the computer, smile and sleep.

I'm signing off now, you're going to watch a movie with your friends. We are going to make it through this tough stage together I promise you.

I love you. With everything I am.
I'll give you a virtual hug every night to sleep for as long as you want. Here are the hug coupons! One for each day!

7/11/11 - hug hug!
8/11/11 - day two! Hugs!
9/11/11 - day three! Hugs!!
10/11/11 - day four! Huuuugggg!!
11/11/11 - day five! Date so special! Nonetheless hugs!!
12/11/11 - day six! Halfway there bb! Hug!!
13/11/11 - day seven! Hugs and snuggles!
14/11/11 - day 8! One full workweek to go! Hugs for a blue Monday night!
15/11/11 - day 9!! Almost there! Hugs n kisses!
16/11/11 - day 10! Two digits! Hugs bb!
17/11/11 - day 11! One more day! Xoxo!
18/11/11 - day 12! I'm coming home!


Okay I should sleep now! Remember one coupon for one day! If I get another weekend inside. Here's the rest! HUGS N KISSES SWEETIE!

11:18 PM

Although i can take comfort in the fact that it could be just possibly one more week of being confined but it still sucks to be thinking that im gonna spend the next 12 days inside and slogging hard.

I wish times would be easier, but oh well everyone has to go through this crap. This really sucks. I hate the counting down part. It could be 19 days. Argh.

Muscles beginning to ache due to exercises. Dang.
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4:01 PM

Wah it's damn depressing and sian. But everyone has to go through. And most would have gone through. First 2 weeks really sucks. Hope I'm really lucky. A Sunday off. I shall enjoy and relax. Then countdown to either 12 or 19more days.
Talking to parents really helps. At least I know I'm really not alone. But being botak ain't helping either. Oh well. See you on 18th if things goes well.

11:49 AM

So here im penning all my thoughts a little less than 20 hours to enlistment.

In fact, im kind of excited about the whole thing, but to surrender all my freedom now is kind of harsh after all these years. I wouldnt consider myself as very independent but i do feel im independent enough, and this would just be what i need to go thru the first 9 weeks first.

I'll have to go shop on the things i need to buy later, and i really dont know if i would be able to sleep tonight. What i want is to be able to read this after i ord and go like, wtf am i anxious about, its only about booking in and basically serve and fo.

Wonder how it feels like to be away from home for so long, coming back over the weekends and go back to a second home. For now its just full of anxiety, a little of excitement, a little bit of stress, i dont know, i never liked these kind of feelings.

3/11. 845. here we go!

11:20 AM