If there was something that I regret not doing, is to say the same thing over and over again. I want to tell her I love her everyday. Every single day since 3 years ago, it didn't change till now. That is something I regret not doing, though I'll still live to regret, I can't possibly change and reverse. This week was alright, I hope the following week would be a lot better.

21 June 2008 12:41am

12:38 AM

Seri, heres why I was depressed the past few days.
A part of me, or perhaps a big part of me can't seem to let go.
Looking at the date today, I realized it has already been 548 days darling and I have to admit it has been really really difficult for me. I told myself over and over again to start anew start afresh but frankly after lying to myself for that period of time, trying whatever I can to forget I can't seem to. I really surrender, so from tomorrow onwards you'll be on my finger. I don't know how long is this going to last but I do actually realize you're still the one I truly gave my heart to. But I do know everything is still possible. I believe. Its a good thing that I still have the memories, well cherished.

=) And no, I can't help but to be really sad over the fact that my perfectly mine left.
I do know the consequences of posting this here. I am choosing to actually say it out.

1224am 18/6/08

12:13 AM

I am freaking, sad. =(
Goodbye world, lol.
I am sick too. Fucked up.

17 June 08 3:14pm

3:13 PM

Years since I blogged. And I've been tagged again =O Before I start the taggy thing, here are some of the things which happened to be the past few days.
Sunday 8/6/08 -> Y.E event, in school from 645am till 7++++++pm.
Monday 9/6/08 -> Sentosa for some sun and thanks to that I am having burns.
Tuesday 10/6/08 -> I actually forgot it was my mum's birthday and I had briefing in the night.
Wednesday 11/6/08 -> Which is today, I went to ice-skate. And some soccer at night.
I really don't want tomorrow to come because I'm simply too lazy to work. IT Fair at Suntec, Toshiba booth come find me if you want. =/ Fuck, I must try to get replacements to work on Saturday and Sunday, any body want to work Saturday and Sunday? Need 4 people! 11am - 9pm!
Okay heres the tag.

01. What turns you on the most?
- Chio bu, no doubt.

02. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
- Some Scandinavian country, because I want to experience the weather and the culture.

03. What's your favorite thing to do?
- Chill and slack, POOL AND SNOOKER!

04. Do you think money can buy happiness?
- Depending on how you look at happiness, then you can decide on how much it is worth.

05. If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?
- Only I know it =D

06. Do you believe you can survive without money?
- That'll never happen, the world is too realistic.

07. What are you afraid to lose the most?
- Kins, friends and my feelings.

08. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
- I will actually bank it in and continue with my life, maybe things will just be a lot more comfortable.

09. What do you dream of doing in the future?
- I don't really know, maybe just do what I want to do.

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you?
- Nonsense, nonsense and even more nonsense.

11. What makes you happy?
- A lot of things make me happy, actually I am easily contented with things because I don't really think I deserve the best of everything. If you know what I mean.

12. What type of person do you hate the most?
- Assholes. Simply because they have everything that people hate. So its a general category.

13. Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?
- Settled down with a stable job, married and possibly have a kid or 2.

14. If you could have a superpower, what would it be?
- Teleport, it is a lot better than flying , meow meow.

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
- The love from others.

16. Any childhood memories you'll like to re-live?
- Every single detail because those were the most carefree and best times.

17. If you have a chance to change your life now, what would you want to change?
- Change my fuckface for the better. LOL, just kidding, nothing much because I don't really think I need a change, I'm myself, unfortunately no girl like me for me. =(

18. The love of your life now?
- Uh, hmm tough question to answer, but my family friends and yeah. =D

19. Are you courageous enough to go and tell the person that you like he/she?
- No, sadly no, no balls. This kind of feeling sucks, its bitter yet sweet at the same time. You do feel happy for her that at least theres a guardian angel but the thing is she doesn't really know it.

20. List one thing that you want to happen right now.
- To not work in the IT fair! Just to do the nonsense job on Saturday and Sunday!

Instructions: Remove 1 question from above, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.


Wednesday 11 June 2008 10:41pm

10:25 PM

Sometimes I really wished I was someone else. Sometimes I wished I could make everyone around me smile like they really mean it. Sometimes I really wish, really really wish things could happen the way that I want it to. Every time I think back, I really don't know why am I attempting to let go, or why am I not even doing anything. Why am I waiting for things to happen when I know it is never going to happen.

Sometimes, why and ifs.

Maybe you could explain to me?

4 June 2008. 12:32am

12:23 AM