I welcomed myself to the 'not so healthy' society on Wednesday. Nah nothing too serious just that I've been feeling like crap since Wednesday. It all started with walking in the rain, playing soccer all sweaty, I walked into super fully blasted air con room. Then I played soccer again. Thursday I had terrible running nose condition, Friday was even worse and instead of resting after taking the medicine I went out to celebrate Jer's birthday. Pretty hardcore shit. So when I reached home around five plus in the morning, I just slept. It was 2pm when I woke up, I tried to find food but there was only stew, so I went back to sleep. Haha, my mum then bought fishball noodles for me =O that was already 4pm. I still feel like sleeping. Nothing much to blog lah I just felt the need to because my last post was more than a week ago. School sucks.

I've been thinking, still.
26 July 2008 7:14pm

7:08 PM

I am lost. =O Actually after that long chat with Aner, I already knew what I was SUPPOSED to do but still, I will probably not do it. The reason why I say probably, I know the relationship that Liz and I share now is nothing more than strangers. We haven't been talking for over a year. The last text I received from her was a "thank you" for her birthday wish. Sigh. Wait, I am going a little off point here, but oh yeah, I was saying, even if I were to confess again, it will probably be Mic jacking himself yet again, and she probably will not reply. Sucks to be me eh? Here I am fantasizing, not sure if thats the appropriate word but you get my drift. I've got my drivers' license card already, I think I look like mr bashful. =O Okay, nothing much to update. I am going to, erm, watch some television. Love you people.



Yet another day, another beautiful dream, a horrible way to start my day.
18 July 2008. 7:07pm

7:01 PM

Pardon my sudden sad and sorrowful post, I felt the sudden urge to do up this blog so I know at least I am not alone. Although I'm really not alone now, I feel really alone and really sad inside. I just had a short talk with Aner on msn, somehow when she directed me to Friendster, I just, sadly clicked on Liz's profile. I have to tell you that absolutely sucked. Its the worst way to kill yourself on the inside. Seriously, it hurts so fucking bad. *Does a sad face.* I just feel like going on and on but I think I should just, relax by myself first.


Fucked.
Really fucked.

16 July 2008 1:05pm

1:02 PM

I know this post is long overdue. I haven't been updating regularly. Seems like every time when I'm out I always go like, "hmmm I should blog about this later" but when I'm home I tend to forget what I was suppose to blog. So, frankly this thing has been going around my mind for the past 1 1/2 years already. You once asked me this "you are sure that you're going to wait?", you know, on that faithful day I answered you yes, you might think it was all out on impulse but, till this very day, it is still yes. And I am still waiting for that day. You're probably not gonna see this anyway but, without you I am not ME!

P.S this isn't an emo post, it is just something I've long wanted to blog about even though I know she doesn't read my blog anymore.

14 July 2008. 12:20am.

12:14 AM

I'm always searching, for your figure to appear somewhere,
On the opposite platform, in the windows along the lane,
Even though I know you couldn't be at such a place.

I always end up looking for your smile, to appear somewhere
At the railroad crossing, waiting for the express to pass
Even though I know you couldn't be at such a place
If our lives could be restarted,
No matter how many times it will be I will go back to you
What I would wanted then would then be nothing
The Things Other Then You!

How are you doing?
Things are fine? Everything is okay?
I'm sure he's a few times better than me?
Hope everything's good, happy anniversary.
How do I live everyday like it's my last when every night I can't seem to say the words I wanna say?
When I pick up my phone, I'm reminded on how close I was to you and how far you suddenly became. You were just a text or a call away but somehow, it is too awkward, too difficult.
I just want you to drop me a miss call like the old days, or scold me, quarrel with me, confessing everyday that you loved me.

How much longer will I have to wait to see you again? To hear your voice again? To see your name pop up in my inbox again? How much longer?


6 July 2008 1051pm

10:34 PM

So heres to all your curiosity, have you ever dreamed and in the dream you know that you could be dreaming? In my dream, of course it was a beautiful one, I somehow knew that that was a dream in another dream. I remembered in my dream I had her to pinch me but somehow in real life, I didn't wake up. To be frank, I kinda forgot about most of the details. An update about my life, for the past 2 weeks or so I haven't been able to have dinner at home. Mostly random reasons. So I kind of miss home cooked food. On Friday we tried to surprise Nelson with this BBQ session that Jas ah beng organized. Not to be surprised, he wasn't surprised. *insert cock face here.* Anyway, poor dick Jere was really drunk and he uttered nonsense, lucky for him his girlfriend wasn't there. =O *insert another cock face here.* So I had to drive that stupid drunk dick home, and by the time he got home, he actually promised to bathe and wash up and go back to the BBQ, that was roughly 1245am if I wasn't wrong. He bathed and shouted for his towel at home. Naked. *insert another cock face here.* Poor LX and JR saw his pee machine. Lucky for me I was playing his guitar. When he changed, he walked to his room and said goodnight, with all of us going "???" in his hall, then his sister asked us to go off. Thanks ah Jere, thanks for playing us uhhhh. Just kidding, you stupid dead drunk dick. Triple D. Lol. Drove them back then went to meet Charl because she can't go back till maid wakes up. We drove to this uber long stretch of straight road, rumored to be the 'drag road', of Singapore. Didn't speed at all don't worry. Drove and drove till we eventually ended up at Pasir Ris. And we drove to you-know-where to talk, thereafter I sent her back, just to find out that her maid wasn't up at 6am. Dropped her to get her breakfast and I drove slowly home.

That was quite a long update, that was just for one day. Lol. Okay I am super lazy to type anything more.

6 July 2008 2:34pm.

2:22 PM

It has been a long time man! =O
Anyway nothing much to update about, a bunch of birthday celebrations. Glad to keep thyself busy. Don't really have anything much to update about, celebrated Seri's very belated birthday today, fuckface got caked on her face, not shit kind of cake but cake cake. Nothing much to update I think. Lol, I tried to update last night, alot of things to blog about but I was too lazy to type it all out.

2 July 2008 11:16pm

11:14 PM