Sunday, October 26, 2008
I can't sleep. I really can't sleep. All I do is to think and think. I can't imagine what it would be like. I just can't stop thinking. What am I to do. This is worse than taking my Olvls result, this is certainly worse than anything I've ever felt. The suspense is killing me. All I want is her. Why did I choose to go in the first place, why did I even made her life hard, why did I disappear. Why did it lead to what it is today. Why. All I want is the second chance. There are things now that I can't possibly rant to you, I knew you had your decision already, I know it isn't me, and I hope that will be changed. I don't want to live my life knowing that that regret will be forever and I lost my only chance to be with you. If I could turn back time, all I want to do is to be good and just love you. Sadly I chose to run away. Now that there is a slim chance, I will fight for what I think is my happiness, our happiness.
I really can't sleep and I feel like just dropping you a text message.
26 October 2008 11:43am