Tuesday, October 28, 2008
This is gonna be a rather long post.
Looking at her sound asleep makes me happy. She looks so adorable. At least for now, she isn't worrying about anything!
So there was this story, about a guy who was in 2 minds. He was at the bus stop one day wondering why his life was in a mess. He questioned himself, asking things like why isn't the bus coming and why isn't there anyone with him. So he got into deeper thinking and he started thinking about his dream girl. He thought about everyone he knew, everyone was happily in love, everyone had someone they could think about. Everyone had someone to message. Everyone had someone who can shower their love and concern for. So he thought to himself, why not me? When he picked up his phone on that faithful day, scrolling through his inbox, he could see that there was actually someone apart from his mum and friends who cared about him. He didn't know it. At that moment, it strucked him, that person, though she was an angel, cared for him without him ever knowing it. He then created a text message but because of that, he got stucked, he used to be able to just talk to her like she was him. It was so easy, suddenly it was all blank.
To him, she was an angel, someone who was so beautiful and perfect, someone who was there all along even though they were just friends. To him, she was suddenly everything. He then saw, and realized everything he was looking for was already right there. Everything he'd ever wanted since his previous relationship. Everything they shared in common seemed to felt so right. Just then he realized, that angel belonged to someone else. He was devestated. But he was determined to keep going on, he knew even though she was with him, he understand that that was the guy who can give her what she needs, the happiness. He admited defeat and everytime the angel calls to rant about her problems, all he wanted to do was fix it. Even though it was about another guy, seems to him like they were happy, he knew he wasn't good enough for her. He knew he was just fantasizing. Everynight, hearing her sobbing voice, it was painful enough, and to know that the cause of the sobbing was from another guy it was even more painful. He then realized he was the cause for most of their problems.
He left. He left the angel, he left her with a broken heart. So he only got to know that the angel, was all along, still there for him. He was even more heartbroken.
So heres his story.
It makes me feel like its raining on the inside.
28 October 2008 1:00pm