Wednesday, October 29, 2008
So, when I was driving, I had my own quiet time. I was really frustrated with myself and yeah I did the spin wheel to left and quickly back to right motion, you all will know what I mean if you literally picture a steering wheel and do that. When I was up on the highway, I was thinking about a lot of things. *brb bathe* she sez shes smiling but i guess not.
Ah, no more mood. I know it already. You need not worry, I'm okay.
29 October 2008 12:55am
Okay let me edit this post. I THOUGHT I knew it, I guess I was wrong. Or maybe just wrong at this second. My guess is you're appearing offline now. =O Actually, if I was the reason, for you being sad, I really don't want that to happen. I mean no point being sad, it is just me. I mean, there are a lot more things out there to be sad about. I know I was wrong to ask you, to give you the selfish request. I know I had to tell you, I love you. That is one thing for sure. It is now like, you're forced to be with me, I don't want that to happen. It is stupid to force this kind of thing. All I wanted to do was to tell you what I was feeling. But upon the selfish request, I added more pressure and more unwanted troubles. All I wanted was to tell you meow, if you liked me too it is just a bonus to me, but you being happy, regardless of whether with me or not, its the ultimate bonus you see. This is why, when I saw you asleep, I was really smiling to myself. Because you looked damn cute when you're sleeping and more importantly, YOU'RE NOT WORRYING ABOUT ANYTHING AND you were probably happy! (: Smile okay. Its a big day for you later, you WON'T SCREW UP! You're gonna own the PP and then you're gonna go overseas with a light heart and just enjoy your well deserved break! SO STOP WORRYING! I know you're probably gonna read this soon, smile okay! You, breaking my heart won't be as painful as you not being happy!
You're being loved.
29 October 2008 1:55am